I got an amazing 'gift' this year. I had a dream. A fantastically vivid dream. In it, I had just given birth to a baby boy, and it's yours. He was beautiful, and so small. You were there too, the whole way. Holding me, supporting me. You held your son first, so gently. You kept saying Thank You, it was like seeing the miracle in your eyes. We were thinking of a name too, we couldn't decide. And making jokes about what your son inherited from you, and what from me. It was magical. I have a crystal clear image of changing his diaper, with you being right there with me. I can still feel my arms around you, and then you holding us from behind. You were there when I was trying to breastfeed, amazed. You were there when he cried. When I cried.
I'm sure you'll be an amazing father one day, Gerhard.