Feb 21, 2012

Thought Question #340

Oh a million things and more!!
It confuses me how people treat other people like crap.
It confuses me how people have trouble being honest.
It confuses me how people lie and lie and lie.
It confuses me how people abuse, rape, murder, plunder, riot, strike, use drugs or even when people get beyond drunk.  Do they actually enjoy it?  How?  Why?
It confuses me how some things happen.
It confuses me how death works and how religion works.
My work confuses me sometimes, I'm still learning.
It confuses me how people can be so negative all.the.time.
It confuses me why people have to kill themselves to feel better.
It confuses me why they think that no one loves or cares for them.
It confuses me why people dont' appreciate what they have.
It confuses me why people don't appreciate the world.
It confuses me how ungrateful and selfish people can be.
I confuse myself sometimes, in the way I feel and the things I do.

A lot of things confuses me.  And I don't think there are always logical answers to my questions about these things.

Feb 20, 2012

Thought Question #339

I can't recall how recent it is, but I had a succession of 3 dreams in a matter of 2 weeks.  In the first dream I was in hospital giving birth to a baby boy and Gerhard was there by my side.  We were happy and laughing, naming the child.  In the second dream I was with close family and two friends about to give birth inside a house, with everyone enjoying dinner and socializing, and ofcourse helping me with the birthing process.  Gerhard wasn't there but I knew in the dream that he was the father and I was going to call him and say I've had the baby.  In the third dream I was in a beautiful garden outside a cottage type house, with most everyone I know.  Friends, family, acquientaces.  There were big tables filled with food and drinks, and everyone was milling around chatting and socializing, eating and drinking, but at the same time supporting me.  Don't ask me how.  I was in labour in a wingback chair in the garden.  I didn't actually have the baby in the third dream but I knew that Gerhard was the father, that we weren't in each other's lives, and that I was loved and supported by everyone there and I didn't need him in my life.

What does that mean?  What if I have issues that he'll do what my father did?  Urgh!

Thought Question #338

To be a stay-at-home artist and just be creative all day long.  I also wanted a stomach as big as my Grandfather's stomach, because I was super jealous that he could eat more than I could (the food was always really yummy)... but of course not anymore.  I wish it were that simple though.

Feb 19, 2012

Thought Question #337

Either Autumn or Spring.  I'm not a big Summer fan, 'cause I swear in Winter you can put on more clothes to stay warm but in Summer you can't take off enough clothes to keep cool!  Spring and Autumn, on the other hand, is just perfect 'cause it's right in between.  Are we even talking about seasons?  Urrrmmm... time of the year could also be holiday time.  It's taken me a while but I think the holidays are okay.  I also like the time of year over my birthday.  Haha!  I'm rambling.  Yay.

What about you?

Feb 18, 2012

Thought Question #336

Well the usual would be oxygen and water of course, but I hear water is getting on the low side so that might not be as free as we'd hope.  Happiness and love should be free.  What else?  Soooooo many things.


Thought Question #335

Well $1000 over here is about R7000 if I'm not mistaken... so yeah I could definitely do with more of that!  I could get my car sooner and be happy paying it and the insurance off with a smile for starters!  Is that selfish?

What about you?

Feb 17, 2012

Thought Question #334

Urm... Nothing?  I'm definitly not that great that I can be called an expert at anything really.  And you know what?  I'm fine with that.


Thought Question #333

Why do I look the way I look?  Why can't I lose weight as fast?
Where do I see my life heading in the future?  What do I want out of a relationship?
How do I want to make my mark in the worl?  Why am I weird?
How am I going to find a way to study and do what I dream of?
Where will my inspiration come from next?
Will I ever find a place of my own?  Will I be able to afford a new car?
Can I give enough thanks to the people in my life?
Can I love the people in my life enough and make them see it?
Why can't I be more like her?  Look more like her?
Why can't I also wear pretty clothes and have great style?
Why do I feel the way I feel?  How do I go about changing it?
Why did I my blog comments disappear completely?
Am I that boring?  What do I have to do?  And would I?

So many questions so little time...

Feb 16, 2012

Underwater Dogs - Seth Casteel Photography

Just when you think nothing more can be done in the world of pet photography... Seth Casteel goes and captures dogs underwater.  Wow!!

Thought Question #332

I love to practice my pencil sketches and my arts and crafts.  Because really, it's not just about doing it.  You have to practice and play around with it until you get it right.  And then the next thing comes and you have to start the practicing again.

And of course don't forget about practicing the singing in the shower!  Hahahahaha!  (No, I don't really do that, but it's funny anyway.)

Feb 15, 2012

Thought Question #331

Well seeing as I haven't been to every place on Earth, I'm not sure how to answer that.  But some of the places I've been are pretty amazing and I don't even know if I can pick one specific one...  but of the places my favourites are of course Omdloti in Kwazulu Natal and the Lowveld of  South Africa, like Sabie, Pilrgims Rest, Graskop, Hazyview, Hoedspruit.  It's beautiful and I love spending time there.  South Africa alone is full of amazing places to see and things to do.  That's not even mentioning the other amazing places I still wanna see before I die!!

Thought Question #330

Smoking.  Drinking.  Picking at my nails.  Agreeing to sh!t I really don't want to be doing.  Yeah... I guess there are probably a couple more if I think hard enough...

Belated, I know.  But come on, give me a break.  I'm not big on Valentines.  But I hope to become better in the future.  What did you do for Valentines?  Were you spoiled or were you the spoiler?  (Sounds strange, but yeah okay.)  Come on! Share with me!  I had some Valentine fever myself... I made random cards, I got a balloon and flowers from Gerhard (remember it was HIS Birthday on Valentines), and I had an amazing dinner with my Mom and Gerhard and Andre.  So I loved it.

Feb 12, 2012

Thought Question #329

Honesty and Integrity.  I guess.  I would hope so.  I'm not big on leadership.  Or politics.  I know it's necessary, but I quite frankly don't care for it.

What do you think??

Feb 11, 2012

Thought Question #328

I'm definitely like my Mom, in a lot of ways.  And hopefully, absolutely nothing like my dad.  Not that I'd know really.  I'm just as strong willed and independent as my Mom.  We have the same sense of humor most days and we have the same work ethic for sure.  I mean she's the one who taught me everything I know.

Thought Question #327

I want to be known for my excellent work and work ethic.  I want to be known for my happiness.  I want to be known for helping people and being there for people, on a personal level.  I want to be known for being a good example.  I want to be known for the feelings I create in people.  Is that weird?

Feb 10, 2012

Thought Question #326

I compare myself to my Mom a lot, and I compare myself to people I know like my friends.  Not that I want to be like anyone else, I'm perfectly happy being me.  I just sometimes think about the differences and the why and how of them.

Thought Question #325

I've achieved greatness of my own with my life, and I'm happy about that.

Feb 9, 2012

Thought Question #324

I love to do my arts & crafts.
I love to do my pencil sketches.
I love to paint.
I love to watch movies & series.
I love to cuddle up with my cat.
I love cooking for friends.
I love eating.
I love spending time outdoors.
I love spending time by the ocean.
I love spending time with friends & family.
I love to spend the day in bed.
I love to swim.
I love so many things... of course.
I can't even mention all of them.

What do you love to do?

Thought Question #323

I would have to admit probably around 10 hours.
Not sure if that's a lot, but it could also be less.

Feb 8, 2012

Thought Question #322

I can't think of someone specific that I had a wrong impression about.  I'm usually pretty accurate.

Thought Question #321

Well, my salary I guess.  Of course more would be even comfier 'cause than I can do more and help more.  But hey, my salary is just fine for me.  Even though I'm still getting used to it.

Thought Questin #320

Quite a couple of them actually.  Like that you have to love yourself before you love someone else fully.  That true friends are a gift to be cherished, and they hide in people you never thought would be there.  That you shouldn't meddle in other people's problems, no matter how good your intentions are, it tends to backfire on you.  That blood is thicker than water, and no matter what you think your family does love you more than anyone else, they just have odd ways of showing it sometimes.  That love is something special, and so is sex, we don't cherish it enough and we don't look after it and nurture it.

There's a lot of life lessons I learned the hard way, please share some of your wisdom with me too?

Feb 7, 2012

Thought Question #319

Not many.  Grietjie is the most regular.  Like every day.  She's my person.  It used to be Eunice as well...  A little les regular but still often - Luhandri.  Delmei.  Rita.  Amanda.  Diederick.  Shannyn.

Well... that's dwindled a bit.  Not that I'm complaining.  I like it just the way it is.

What about you??

Thought Question #318

That my hair looks pretty.  That my make-up was pretty.  A guy saying I'm always friendly and smiling and he really likes that about me.  Gerhard saying I'm gorgeous or whatever.  I don't get many compliments. 

Feb 6, 2012

Thought Question #317

Needles and really sharp things, like maybe knives and stuff.  But mostly needles.  I hate injections.  No matter how necessary they are.  I don't donate blood.  Don't look at me like that.  I don't.  I can't.  I know I'm a bad person or whatever but IT'S A NEEDLE FFS!!!  I'm sure it's not normal.  I 'donate' enough blood once a month, I don't need to put it in a little bag too.
Other than needles... dirty hands.  I hate dirty hands.  Or being dirty myself.  I can't handle it.


Thought Question #316

My Mom.  I always try to say I love you before we part ways.
You never know what might happen.

Thought Question #315

I don't think I can pinpoint my biggest one but they include things like people digging through my things, especially my arts and crafts things, when people dress inapropriately, when a house is really untidy and/or visibly dirty, waiter staff or retail staff being really rude to customers... do any of these count as pet peeves?

What about yours??

Feb 3, 2012

Thought Question #314

A picture a collegue showed me of him dressed up as a woman.  In his defence it was for a party!  Hahahahahahaha!!!!  Keep in mind he's in his fifties.... Heehee

What about you??  Please do share