Apr 30, 2010

Thoughtful Question #8

ThoughtQuestions.com have a few very thoughtful questions... obviously... hence the name. I have taken it upon myself to ponder the questions they put out there. One by one.

To me.. it's a sign of weakness. Purely because I hate letting people see me cry. I'd rather let you see the strong, positive side of me. I'd rather be your pillar of strength, than have you be mine. I cry. More than you might realize. But I hide away when I cry. I don't want you to see it. Or hear it. Or know it.
But I also want your help. I also want you to listen to me. I also want you to hear what my heart is trying to make you understand. I don't know why. I think every person has a need for this. Or it could just be me. . . It's the same thing with seeing someone else cry. I can't stand it. Not because I think it's pathetic or weak or wrong.. but because it hurts me so much. It physically and mentally hurts me to see someone I love, cry. Even someone I don't love/know, sometimes. It creates this empty void inside of me that aches like you cannot imagine, because most of the time, I can't do anything to take the tears away. I can't make you feel better or fix the situation or the emotions you're going through. And I can't stand that. I hate that. I feel so hopeless. Powerless. Useless.

I think that crying is very good for the soul. I think crying relieves the soul and relieves the heartache, sorrow, and/or pain. I think crying is good for you. For me. For anyone. I just don't like it. That's all.

What do YOU think??


Hillbilly Duhn said...

I have mixed emotions when it comes to crying. I see it as a weakness as well, but at the same time, the strength to show true emotions, the two interweave and baffle me.

When I get angry, hand shaking, red faced angry, I cry. Unwilling tears well and fall every.stupid.time. When I'm happy, gloriously proud, I cry. I've even cried after sex. Because it was so fucking awesome! Omg. I cry when I'm so happy to see my bff after a year or so and we both usually hiccup and sob as we hold each other. It's horrible to cry about so much.

But I can't help it. I dont have a choice in it most of the time, they are welling and falling before the thought of what they are doing ever cross my mind. By then, it's too late.

So, I see it as both.

Hillbilly Duhn said...

p.s. so I don't sound like such a wuss, it was only one time after sex. lol