Oct 21, 2009

You're Still Here

I have to share this piece I found on Le Love... (I know! I just love that blog!) It makes me think of what I'm going through. Sort of. Not completely. And it's something I don't want. It's just not right. It's just not fair.

i'll admit it,
i was lonely,
i needed you then,
i wanted you to help fill those gaps of solitude,
i had no one and you were there,
in the back of my mind,
i saw no future,
i just saw the present,
i was alone and you were there,
you fell in love,
i felt sorry for you,
so i stayed,
i know heartbreak,
wouldn't wish it upon my worst enemy,
and still, i was alone but you were there,
wanted to love you so badly,
like the way i once did for him,
yet, those memories of heartache,
have numbed veins that once pumped love,
i hate that you're in love with me,
i hate that i can't be in love with you

i found someone else,
he's what i want,
i'm not alone but i still want him,
and he wants me,
just not as much as i want him,
he needs me for right now,
and i'll take that,
no future in mind,
i've fallen for him,
he revived my heart,
but instead of feeling light,
it feels heavy,
he doesn't love me,

i can't tell you of my infidelity,
it'll hurt you,
and i can't bare the guilt,
besides, i don't want to be lonely,
and, well...
you're still here

by ACH


ScarletTd1ar1es said...

irony. :)

someone once said

the one yu love cannot love you just as much and the one who loves you, you cant love back. :(

Maryx said...

So true Scarlet! Why is that?!

Daffy said...

...oh the complicated webs we weave...

ScarletTd1ar1es said...

simply because we compare too much and then what we have seems miniature.
you dont quite appreciate what you have unless you lose it. and when you do by some spark of luck it is already too late. :(

Andhari said...

Been in the situation and until now i can't really say it out loud..

Maryx said...

So True Daffy... and FFS! Why?!

Scarlet... Bleh! Unfair! But so is life...

Andhari, it's easier said than done. Denial is wonderful. =D