Jul 30, 2009

Is It ThAt BaD?

The technological generation is really getting to us huh?
Have you every sat back and thought about it? Like when the power is off? Have you ever just been sitting and thought... 'Well I'll just go make myself a cup of coffee'... or 'Let's put the laptop on charge'... or 'What am I gonna eat now?'...

Strange how reliable we've become to electricity and technology. Sometimes I wish I could just go live in the middle of nowhere where you don't have technology and issues. Where you have to kind of fend for yourself. I guess that's why I enjoy going to the farm so much... even though there IS power and technology, there's hardly any cellphone reception so ppl are forced to leave you alone. There is no DSTV, but there is a huge collection of VHS (yes!) videos and dvd's to choose from. Only for the cold nights though. When it's warm we're outside by the bonfire.

When I drive the 65km to the farm, I leave my worries behind piece by piece. Bit by horrible bit. Then I can relax. Shitty thing is... when I drive back the worries just jump right back on the band wagon! Ugh!

Why did technology take over so completely? I think I'm pretty clueless when it comes to the global technological hype (did I just make up a word?)... like Twitter! Yes okay okay be shocked and when you're ready come back... I know what it is, I just don't know how it works or how to join it. Is it from your cellphone? Direct from the internet? WHAT?! And that's just minor I guess.. there are so many things out there that would make me go "WTF?!?!".

Gadgets. Gizmos. Things on the internet. Shows. Movies. Toys.
IS this just me?? Don't think I'm complaining though. I, too, love technology and gadgets and gizmos etc... sometimes it just seems a bit intimidating. And I find it a tad bit sad that not a lot of ppl would be able to survive in the wild. Not even remotely...

This is just hysterical ... and wrong!

Jul 28, 2009

Dude Where's My Car?

Wow we live in such an awesome country with such lay-abiding citizens who are always friendly, caring, willing to help and observant.


Excuse me. I am still in shock and don't know how to post lately. Remember, I'm trying the personal blog thing and trying to make it work. For me. No one else. So... Dude, where's my car?! Yes. My car got stolen. Between Saturday 25 July 2009 @ 11pm and 26 July 2009 @ 12 noon. Gearlock on. Immobilizer on. Please... Please... Please explain to me how they do that. Out of an enclosed driveway. Our fellow South African citizens are screwing me around royally. In more ways than one. I had a friend's tent in the car. I had a friend's dvd player, speakers and a sub in the car. I had a new cd I got for my birthday in the car. I had one of my fave scarfs in the car. But most of all... My car.

I haven't even cried about it coz I'm so shocked. And I have this idea in my head that crying is just a waste of time... what will happen when I cry? Nothing! So there. Okay I'm babbling again. Guess I'm a bit stressed... have to think of buying a new car... have to think of my finances... don't WANT to think of any of those things. Can I just run away and hide? Will it go away?? Aaahhh Fuck!

Jul 22, 2009

My Birthday Pressies...

Just thought I'd share a couple of the presents I got for my birthday:
  • A ruby and gold ring from my mommy... matching the necklace I already have!
  • R400 Gift Voucher from Gary Rom Hairdressing.
  • Butro (Real butter. I LOVE it but I never buy it for myself LOL)
  • Nescafe Gold (Delicious coffee that I also never buy for myself)
  • A colouring book... for sh!ts and giggles.
  • A lot of money.
  • A beaded necklace.
  • Beaded drop earings.
  • Money... Money... Money...
Sorry for being so quite ppl. Not that it's supposed to bother me so much. I've been on other ppl's blogs WAY too much lately. Will share soon...

Biltong Pasta Potjie

250ml cream

1 chopped green pepper

1 chopped red pepper

1 packet of chopped mushrooms

1 ½ chopped onions

2 packets of pasta (try going for the shells)

Block of cheddar cheese - grated

Block of mozzarella cheese - grated

Biltong to taste – cut thin

  • Fry green pepper, red pepper, mushrooms and onions in a frying pan together.
  • Cook the pasta separately.
  • Mix fried veggies and pasta together once done.
  • Add cream and mix well.
  • Add cheese and mix well.
  • Add biltong, mix and serve hot.

As easy as that!!

Recipe serves 5-6 people.

Any questions please ask me!

Obstacles, Alcohol and Making Up

So my birthday weekend is just about long gone and I haven't been in the bloggie world in a while. Yeah so what. I've been recovering. I've been sleeping. I've been catching up on work. Ugh!

Wednesday 15 July - I'm 21!!!
How does it feel? ...It feels like I've been climbing a mountain for the whole duration of my life and finally, on that day, I was right at the top, looking down, going - "OH FCUK!! How the hell am I gonna down from here?!"
My mom, my gran, my niece and I went for a lovely breakfast at a cute little restaurant and cocktail bar with orange juice and champagne included. My mom and I got a bit bubbly and giggly of course, so much so that gran thought we were drunk... which we weren't! The rest of the day we went browsing in the shops and to get our vouchers from our cellphone upgrades (I got about R1500 worth of vouchers). That night we went to Spur for delicious ribs and buffalo wings and of course everyone had to sing for me as I have a crazy ass family! I think I turned beet red! Oh well it was a good day in general.

Thursday 16 July - Shopping & Packing
Thursday a friend and I went shopping for the ingredients for my potjie that I made the weekend. We went shopping for the alcohol. We went shopping for more plates and cutlery than was necessary. I went for a haircut at a Gary Rom Salon with a voucher I got for my birthday and bought myself some awesome hair products. At about 3pm we went to my house to pack the car, which was such a mission!! Finally, with a car packed heavy we got on the road to the farm, which isn't really that far, it just felt a lot further that day 'coz we couldn't drive very fast with a loaded car. Especially on the 10km dirt road. Think we went about 15km/h there... yeah! At least we saw some awesome SA Wildlife! The rest of the day on the farm was relaxing, Eunice (owner of the farm and part sister to me! Kidding... we've just known each other way too long) walked us around the obstacle course she made and we spoke about the things we still gotta do. Went to bed rather early that night. Mmmmmmm...

Friday 17 July - Preparation etc.
Friday we had a rather a relaxing day. We prepared the Boma for the party. We prepared the wood. I went out, on my own might I add, to paint the symbols on the trees for the symbol search, as well as on the rocks in the graveyard (which was disgusting btw, do you have any idea what you find in a 200 year old graveyard?! There are about 4 graves with headstones, the rest are bodies in the ground covered with rocks to represent a grave. Gross right?). It turned out to be quite the exercise for me as I had to squate down all the time to paint. Turns out I could use the exercise... Who'da thought?! LOL!
Later that night the bf, best friend 1, best friend 1's fiance and best friend 2 pitched up in the little red gholf and started drinking already. Shame. Well I got in bed about 12-ish that night so I was quite alright the next day. I woke up about 4am with the bf getting in bed drunk as a skunk. Clothes and all. Oh well, his issues tomorrow. He wants to be brave. Live with it.

Saturday 18 July - Party Starts
Saturday was a long day, preparing the food, getting the boma perfect, the fires going, the guests arriving bit by bit, and to top it all off the highway closed down on the way to the farm so that was another issue... that was quickly sorted out though. Phew! We went out on the obstacle course around 3pm. My BFF1 was there with the camera of course (She's pregnant about 6 months so I wouldn't let her do the course with us). We climbed through ropes set up like a Spiderweb, we crawled underneath barb wire between two trees, one high and one low one, we climbed through a tyre hanging from two trees, went over a balancing beam with cow sh!t on the sides. Everyone had to search for their matching symbols in a grove of trees, not easy to find though, and below their symbols they found a puzzle in an envelope they had to build to find a clue. Once they had their clues everyone went to the graveyard to search for their matching symbols on the rocks. Once they got their clues and bonuses in the graveyard everyone went to the waterhole on the farm where I set up a table with punch and jello shots. All the guests got their individually printed 'glasses' with their names on it, as well as a quote relating to each one individually (if I know them well enough) and Thanx for joining my 21st!! The 'glasses' were made out of 340ml soda cans with the top cut open. The rest of the night was a blur as there were so many people seeking my attention.

Later that night... we ended up trying to play Kings (drinking game). At one stage I heard the bf calling BFF2 'Honey', so I piped up and asked him why she's suddenly 'Honey'. He said something about putting up with my sh!t, a friend told him he had to for atleast my birthday, he said no he has to put up with my sh!t every day. So I lost it and said to him - 'If you can't handle my sh!t why don't you leave me for the 3rd time?!' Of course that got everything going downhill from there, he got in his car to leave. Drunk. From a locked up farm. HaHa! So just sat there waiting for him to come back as I knew he couldn't leave even if he wanted to. I finally went out the Boma to see where he is coz I heard him coming back, just to find a suicidal feel-sorry-for-herself-all-the-time friend of mine in the car with him!! We had a quick talk and decided things are over between us, once again. He got his stuff, got a key, and left. I chased the 'friend' away as well. I'd just had enough by then. The rest of the night was uneventful, we went to bed not too long after that of course.

Sunday 19 July - Cool Down... and Start Again!
Waking up on Sunday morning with a cuppa coffee (Nescafe Gold might I add!! ~I just LOVE Nescafe Gold, I never buy it for myself though coz it's about R70 a small bottle, so I got a bottle for my birthday!! Yippee!!~) on the porch, we found the bf's car outside on the farm. With him and the 'friend' sharing Zzzzzzz's in the car. How fcuking nice is that?! I held myself in though. They came crawling back to the Boma, sat and enjoyed themselves for the rest of the day. We all did. The 'friend' must stay the hell away from me. She's nothing to me after what she's done... So BFF1's fiance and the bf... ex-bf... decided to get me drunk all over again coz they didn't see me drunk on Saturday. Not my fault I can handle my alcohol! So I ended up drinking from a glass resembling (to a T) a Boobie!! I had to drink from the nipple! How odd is that...? I'll post some photo's as soon as I can... We had clean shooters, mixed shooters, hot shooters, cold shooters, and even started tossing some eggs around for the fun of it (Eiergooi). HaHa!! The (ex)BF and I started talking like normal human beings again, we had quite a bit of fun together. Until he kissed me. I couldn't really handle that. Don't throw me away and then act like nothing's wrong between us. After a while he came crawling back on his hands and knees asking me to forgive him and making promises once again... And guess what? I fell for it. Again. But this is the last. I can't go through this again. We went for a long walk & talk and decided on a few ground rules and changes. So here's hoping!!!

Jul 15, 2009


You said that I hate you

You said that I never loved you

You said that I never cared

But I don't hate

And I do love

And I do care

You turned your back and walked away

You saw the tears in my eyes

You turned your back on me

On our friendship

I am left standing here

Wondering what I did

What made you cry

What made you hurt

What did I do that made you think

That I hated you and

Didn't love you and

Didn't care?

I am standing here, with one single tear



Photo: Katarina Sokolova Photography

My Fears, My Dreams, My Hopes

My fears, my dreams, my hopes

They are what make me.

But they are not always

As they seem.

I am let down time after time

As my fears become reality,

My dreams are shattered

And my hopes were never there.

My fear of betrayal,

Of being alone -

Is beneath the surface

Waiting to come forth.

My dreams of a perfect life

Of having it all

Become non-existent when I took my

First step - and proceed to fall.

My hopes for the future

For having whoever I desire

Were not there

Because I receive no desire in return.

Why does life

Seem to have a way

Of letting you down

On each and every day?

I want some answers

To help me out.

So my dreams, my fears and my hopes

May come about...

Jul 10, 2009

If Life Hands You Lemons...

I found this on Just Moi, check her out. VERY true statements these... This should probably be taped to your bathroom mirror where one could read it everyday. You may not realize it, but it's 100% true:

1. There are at least two people in this world that you would die for
2. At least fifteen people in this world love you in some way
3. The only reason anyone would ever hate you is because they want to be just like you
4. A smile from you can bring happiness to anyone, even if they don't like you
5. Every night, someone thinks about you before they go to sleep
6. You mean the world to someone
7. You are special and unique
8. Someone that you don't even know exists, loves you
9. When you make the biggest mistake ever, something good comes from it
10. When you think the world has turned its back on you, take another look
11. Always remember the compliments you received, forget about the rude remarks

And when life hands you Lemons, ask for tequila and salt and call me over!