Apr 30, 2010
More Dreams...
I had another dream about you.I felt your arms around me.
I felt your breath on my neck.
I felt you pulling me closer as I thought to pull away.
I felt my body melting into yours.
I felt you looking into my eyes. My heart. My soul.
I felt you lips touching my skin.
I felt my heart skip a beat in your presence.
I felt him looking at me and not wanting to look back.
I felt myself wanting to be with you.
I felt myself missing you.
I felt you pull away from me,
Brushing a stray hair from my face.
I felt you come closer to hold me 'one more time'...
And you were gone.
I woke up from that dream.
Crying.
Wanting.
Waiting.
Thoughtful Question #8
ThoughtQuestions.com have a few very thoughtful questions... obviously... hence the name. I have taken it upon myself to ponder the questions they put out there. One by one.
To me.. it's a sign of weakness. Purely because I hate letting people see me cry. I'd rather let you see the strong, positive side of me. I'd rather be your pillar of strength, than have you be mine. I cry. More than you might realize. But I hide away when I cry. I don't want you to see it. Or hear it. Or know it.
But I also want your help. I also want you to listen to me. I also want you to hear what my heart is trying to make you understand. I don't know why. I think every person has a need for this. Or it could just be me. . . It's the same thing with seeing someone else cry. I can't stand it. Not because I think it's pathetic or weak or wrong.. but because it hurts me so much. It physically and mentally hurts me to see someone I love, cry. Even someone I don't love/know, sometimes. It creates this empty void inside of me that aches like you cannot imagine, because most of the time, I can't do anything to take the tears away. I can't make you feel better or fix the situation or the emotions you're going through. And I can't stand that. I hate that. I feel so hopeless. Powerless. Useless.
I think that crying is very good for the soul. I think crying relieves the soul and relieves the heartache, sorrow, and/or pain. I think crying is good for you. For me. For anyone. I just don't like it. That's all.
What do YOU think??
To me.. it's a sign of weakness. Purely because I hate letting people see me cry. I'd rather let you see the strong, positive side of me. I'd rather be your pillar of strength, than have you be mine. I cry. More than you might realize. But I hide away when I cry. I don't want you to see it. Or hear it. Or know it.But I also want your help. I also want you to listen to me. I also want you to hear what my heart is trying to make you understand. I don't know why. I think every person has a need for this. Or it could just be me. . . It's the same thing with seeing someone else cry. I can't stand it. Not because I think it's pathetic or weak or wrong.. but because it hurts me so much. It physically and mentally hurts me to see someone I love, cry. Even someone I don't love/know, sometimes. It creates this empty void inside of me that aches like you cannot imagine, because most of the time, I can't do anything to take the tears away. I can't make you feel better or fix the situation or the emotions you're going through. And I can't stand that. I hate that. I feel so hopeless. Powerless. Useless.
I think that crying is very good for the soul. I think crying relieves the soul and relieves the heartache, sorrow, and/or pain. I think crying is good for you. For me. For anyone. I just don't like it. That's all.
What do YOU think??
Apr 29, 2010
It's just keys
I don't quite know how to handle fighting with a friend. Even just sorting out something bad to make my own life better, and talking to them about it, terrifies me. No matter how necessary it is. I hate fighting. I hate feeling like this. I hate the thought of losing someone I love. A friend of mine came to live with my mom and I for a month. To get out of the place she was living in until she moves into her own flat with another friend of hers. Awesome! Or so I thought. We saw her once a week. Because the rest of the week she was staying with the new boyfriend. We (and by 'we' I mean myself and the rest of the friends) hardly ever got to see her even if we invited her for dinner or wine. The new boyfriend was always there. IS always there.
During the time my friend moved in with us, I offered up my gate remote to her because I can open the gate with my cellphone (for guest visit purposes). I did this for a whole month. Sometimes, depending on the weather and how the gate feels I guess, the thing won't open when I want it to. So there I sit, stranded, can't go into my own home or I can't get out. Either way, it's NOT nice. Especially when I'm late. So I end up phoning my mother (who's cellphone is also connected to the gate system, like mine) and ask her to open for me. This drives her, and me, absolutely loony!! She gets angry and irritated with me, she yells at me, she yells through my phone at the gate.. it put some (a lot) of strain on our relationship. But we endured it because we were helping my friend and she needed the remote.
She only used the remote once.a.week.
I go in and out of my house every.day.
I had issues with the gate on average three.times.a.week.
My friend moved out this weekend past. She left with the keys and remote. And all her belongings. She'll bring my keys when she gets a chance. Okay Okay Breath. Calm down. It's fine. It's no big deal. Really. . . That was Sunday. Monday, I wasn't at work. I wasn't far from home all day. I was home Monday night. No keys. Tuesday was a public holiday, I went to the shops for 3-odd hours and I was home the rest of the day. No keys. Another fight with mom. A fight with gran (She's the owner of the house). I offered to drive to her place and pick up the keys, on both days. She hasn't fully moved in yet because she doesn't have a bed. She's staying with the boyfriend until she finds a bed. He lives way on the other side of town. I can't come over to get the keys. She'll bring my keys when she gets a chance.
Wednesday (yesterday) she tells me she's bringing the keys. Whoohoo!! Wednesday night she sends me a message that she can't come over to bring the keys because her boyfriend is on standby for work and he has to go for a job that night, and that she'll bring the keys on Friday. Guess what sweetie?? I have plans on Friday. Guess what sweetie?? You have your own car. Guess what else?? You have a drivers license and you are a totally independent, strong woman who can think for herself and drive to my house to bring me the keys. Seeing as it's your responsibility, I don't see what the problem is. Because, as if it's not enough that you have our house keys and remote, you also have our alarm code, which we have to change now, because my mom doesn't trust your boyfriend, even though she
trusts YOU. I spoke to her today. I told her (very) nicely that I don't want to fight with her, but that she has to make a plan with our house keys. It's becoming a problem for my mom and I. Did I say that in the wrong way? Did I say that rudely? I don't know. Because she got ANGRY with me. Angry. She lashed out and told me that she can't drive at night because she can't see (that's new) and that she was with the boyfriend all night long while he was on call. She sarcastically said to me 'Sorry but it's not like I've had the keys for a month and don't want to give it back!'.
I asked her why she's angry with me and she told me that I upset her and that it seems as if we don't trust her and that she's going to steal stuff from our house.
NOT WHAT I WAS THINKING. OR MY MOM.
Miscommunication. Once again. Fantastic.
I love my friend and I don't want to upset her. I didn't even want to hurry her up for the keys, but I was left with no other choice. I feel like a monster. But is it justified? I'm not sure. I just want to let it go. That's all. I hope she can too.
Apr 28, 2010
Thoughtful Question #7
ThoughtQuestions.com have a few very thoughtful questions... obviously... hence the name. I have taken it upon myself to ponder the questions they put out there. One by one.
I love my friends. I love my family. I love my cat. And I even love my bed. =) I love so many people that I don't think I'll stop writing if I even begin to list their names. I try to show my love through the little things I do. I try to remind them that I love them. I try to always be there for them. I try to help where I can. I try to be a true friend and a true person to every one of them. I don't always succeed. I know I don't. But I try. Isn't that the important thing?
Like any human being, I get wrapped up in my own life and my own problems. I get wrapped up in things I need to do and things I want to do. But, I really think I am (mostly) succeeding in making the people I love, KNOW that I love them. I hope I am.
I like getting people I love together. I like cooking for people I love. I like asking people I love about their lives. (Everyone just needs someone to talk to sometimes). I like sending people I love odd messages showing I care. I like doing things for people I love.
I don't think they feel the same way about me...
I love my friends. I love my family. I love my cat. And I even love my bed. =) I love so many people that I don't think I'll stop writing if I even begin to list their names. I try to show my love through the little things I do. I try to remind them that I love them. I try to always be there for them. I try to help where I can. I try to be a true friend and a true person to every one of them. I don't always succeed. I know I don't. But I try. Isn't that the important thing?Like any human being, I get wrapped up in my own life and my own problems. I get wrapped up in things I need to do and things I want to do. But, I really think I am (mostly) succeeding in making the people I love, KNOW that I love them. I hope I am.
I like getting people I love together. I like cooking for people I love. I like asking people I love about their lives. (Everyone just needs someone to talk to sometimes). I like sending people I love odd messages showing I care. I like doing things for people I love.
I don't think they feel the same way about me...
Apr 23, 2010
All you can do is Wait...
I wish I can just wave a magic wand and make her pain go away. I wish I can hit some sense into him. I wish I can make him see what he's losing out on. I wish I can make them understand. I wish I can make them see the magic they are losing out on. I wish I can take away his insecurities. And hers. I wish I can hug her tight and make her instantly understand that the world is a good, kind place and that love is still out there for her. She is such a wonderful person and such a loving person. She deserves only the best that love and the world has to offer her. He is my friend too. I've know him years longer than I've known her. But I feel like I want to kick him in the balls to make him wake up. I won't though. He's still my friend. I still want to see him happy as well. I just don't understand why he wasn't happy to begin with... with her. He was so positive about her. He was SO happy and SO in love and couldn't stop talking about marrying this girl one day. I felt like Cupid. Getting them together. I was so proud of myself (secretly) for creating so much happiness for two people that I love. And now?? There's nothing. It's over. Just like that. And I don't understand. I feel so helpless. I feel so powerless. I know I can't make things right. That's it's not up to me. But I wish I could...Love is a strange thing huh?!
BAM Progress
I am just about studying myself silly. Our first module in the Business Administration Management short program is Marketing. It's VERY interesting. Which is a good thing, right? Our lecturer is amazing, his teaching skills are so good that it feels like I don't have to make any notes, and he even brings us notes that he makes from the handbook. Awesomeness! (Bear with me, it's my first after-school study experience).
I go to class every Saturday morning from 8am - 12am. We wrote a test during the second class already and I think I aced it. Well, mostly. I find the idea around marketing very interesting and so much broader than I expected. I find myself looking at everything (ads, businesses, marketing ventures) differently. I study myself silly, as I said. I sit at that dining room table (no desk in my room anymore) and read and write and read and write and try to figure out my assignment questions etc. . . But it STILL feels like I don't get to doing it fast enough. I don't have enough time in a day.
I WAS able to do a bit of studying at work while I was bored by my manager put a stop to it. Understandably I guess. But hey, why is it okay to sit around on the Internet when I'm bored and it's not okay to do something productive?! I don't get it!
My Marketing exam is the 3rd of May and my assignment and workbook has to be handed in tomorrow. I still have so much work to do! Eeeeeeekkk!!
I go to class every Saturday morning from 8am - 12am. We wrote a test during the second class already and I think I aced it. Well, mostly. I find the idea around marketing very interesting and so much broader than I expected. I find myself looking at everything (ads, businesses, marketing ventures) differently. I study myself silly, as I said. I sit at that dining room table (no desk in my room anymore) and read and write and read and write and try to figure out my assignment questions etc. . . But it STILL feels like I don't get to doing it fast enough. I don't have enough time in a day.
I WAS able to do a bit of studying at work while I was bored by my manager put a stop to it. Understandably I guess. But hey, why is it okay to sit around on the Internet when I'm bored and it's not okay to do something productive?! I don't get it!
My Marketing exam is the 3rd of May and my assignment and workbook has to be handed in tomorrow. I still have so much work to do! Eeeeeeekkk!!
Apr 22, 2010
Thoughtful Question #6
ThoughtQuestions.com have a few very thoughtful questions... obviously... hence the name. I have taken it upon myself to ponder the questions they put out there. One by one.
I think I have the tendency to ask TOO MANY questions. I can't help it. I have to know the answers. I have to figure things out. Not all things, mind you. There are some things that I just.don't.need.to.know. But honestly, when it affects me and my life, I just have to know. I have to have the answers. I have to be able to give my heart some rest. Otherwise it's like I'm bottling things up. It feels like a huge bubble filled with water, hovering above me, waiting to pop and drown me...
And that's exactly what I'm scared of. That's why I ask so many questions. I'd rather understand something or someone, or even their actions, than live in uncertainty or fcuk things up in the end. I have a knack of doing just that, sometimes.
YOU??
I think I have the tendency to ask TOO MANY questions. I can't help it. I have to know the answers. I have to figure things out. Not all things, mind you. There are some things that I just.don't.need.to.know. But honestly, when it affects me and my life, I just have to know. I have to have the answers. I have to be able to give my heart some rest. Otherwise it's like I'm bottling things up. It feels like a huge bubble filled with water, hovering above me, waiting to pop and drown me...And that's exactly what I'm scared of. That's why I ask so many questions. I'd rather understand something or someone, or even their actions, than live in uncertainty or fcuk things up in the end. I have a knack of doing just that, sometimes.
YOU??
Take a Look Inside
Take a look inside
Close your eyes and don’t hide!
Find all your suffering and pain
And you will start to gain.
You can be your own friend
And get through anything
You’re the one person
You can trust with all your secrets.
Finding what matters deep within
Can give you everything.
Are you as happy as you seem
Or is it all just a show?
You can fool anyone
But not that special someone
Who lives deep within.
So forget the rest
And give it your best!
Take a look inside
And see what you can find
Search every tear and smile
Just listen for a while…
Author: Larochelle Nel
My 3 Wishes for 22 April 2010
I have random wishes. I have important wishes. I have idolized wishes. I have impossible wishes. I have wishes for the future. I have dreamy wishes. I have ugly wishes. I have awesome wishes. I have wishes for myself. I have wishes for you. I have wishes for the world. I have wishes for the people I love. I have mundane wishes. But all my wishes mean something on a specific day. Let me share today's with you...
- I wish for more study time
- I wish I could just pack up and leave
- I wish my mom would go and see a doctor!
Secret Worlds
This is dedicated to all the people out there who sometimes, or most of the time, or all of the time.. may find it difficult to express what is inside of them. Just because it is so unimaginable, magnificent, wonderful, stupid and amazing!
Rules for Driving in South Africa
1. Never indicate - this will give away your next move. A real south African driver never uses them.
2. Under no circumstance should you leave a safe distance between you and the car in front of you, this space will be filled by at least 2 taxis and a BMW, putting you in an even more dangerous situation.
3. The faster you drive through a red light, the smaller the chance you have of getting hit.
4. Never, ever come to a complete stop at a stop sign. No one expects it and it will only result in you being rear-ended.
5. Braking is to be done as hard and late as possible to ensure that your ABS kicks in, giving you a nice, relaxing foot massage as the brake pedal pulsates. For those of you without ABS, it's a chance to stretch your
legs.
6. Never pass on the right when you can pass on the left. It's a good way to check if the people entering the highway are awake.
7. Speed limits are arbitrary figures, given only as a guideline. They are especially not applicable in South Africa during rush hour. That's why it's called 'rush hour....'
8. Just because you're in the right lane and have no room to speed up or move over doesn't mean that a South African driver flashing his high beams behind you doesn't think he can go faster in your spot.
9. Always slow down and rubberneck when you see an accident or even someone changing a tyre. Never stop to help - you will be mugged.
10. Learn to swerve abruptly. South Africa is the home of the high-speed slalom driving thanks to the government, which puts holes in key locations to test drivers' reflexes and keeps them on their toes.
11. It is traditional to honk your horn at cars that don't move the instant the light turns green. This prevents storks from building nests on top of the traffic light and birds from making deposits on your car.
12. Remember that the goal of every South African driver is to get there first, by whatever means necessary.
13. On average, at least three cars can still go through an intersection after the light has turned red. It's people not adhering to this basic principle that causes the big traffic jams during rush hour.
2. Under no circumstance should you leave a safe distance between you and the car in front of you, this space will be filled by at least 2 taxis and a BMW, putting you in an even more dangerous situation.
3. The faster you drive through a red light, the smaller the chance you have of getting hit.
4. Never, ever come to a complete stop at a stop sign. No one expects it and it will only result in you being rear-ended.
5. Braking is to be done as hard and late as possible to ensure that your ABS kicks in, giving you a nice, relaxing foot massage as the brake pedal pulsates. For those of you without ABS, it's a chance to stretch your
legs.
6. Never pass on the right when you can pass on the left. It's a good way to check if the people entering the highway are awake.
7. Speed limits are arbitrary figures, given only as a guideline. They are especially not applicable in South Africa during rush hour. That's why it's called 'rush hour....'
8. Just because you're in the right lane and have no room to speed up or move over doesn't mean that a South African driver flashing his high beams behind you doesn't think he can go faster in your spot.
9. Always slow down and rubberneck when you see an accident or even someone changing a tyre. Never stop to help - you will be mugged.
10. Learn to swerve abruptly. South Africa is the home of the high-speed slalom driving thanks to the government, which puts holes in key locations to test drivers' reflexes and keeps them on their toes.
11. It is traditional to honk your horn at cars that don't move the instant the light turns green. This prevents storks from building nests on top of the traffic light and birds from making deposits on your car.
12. Remember that the goal of every South African driver is to get there first, by whatever means necessary.
13. On average, at least three cars can still go through an intersection after the light has turned red. It's people not adhering to this basic principle that causes the big traffic jams during rush hour.
(Im)Possible
Nothing is every impossible. I know things can be really, really hard to do... but I don't think it's impossible. Maybe some people are unable to do it but other people are more than able. Still makes it possible. I also think that any skill can be acquired. If you work hard enough and strive for what you want (if it IS what you want), you'll really, really be able to do it. But that's just what I believe. And I think it's a very good thing to believe in.I want a model body... I know that I have to work hard and exercise hard and eat right and all that. But I don't. Well, not enough. But that doesn't make it impossible.
I want to be a graphic designer... I know I have to study to acquire the skills I need. I know that I need the money to study. I know that I need more time and more dedication to making time to study for the skills I need. I don't have all that. But it doesn't make it impossible.
I want to travel the world... I know I need the money and time for it. I don't have all that. But it doesn't make it impossible.
"I will never be good enough for you" - WHY are you so negative and skeptical?
"I will always be a failure" - If you believe it, you will live it.
"I will never get a better job" - DO something about it. Don't just accept it.
"I will never be happy again" - Don't count on it! You're just holding yourself away from the happiness you deserve.
"I will never love someone like/as much as I love you" - Oh get real?!
"I will never pass this test" - If you don't study, you're right, of course. It's your choice.
"I will never have a normal life" - Don't just sit there, Make it happen!
NEVER say Never. It's the same as saying Impossible.
It's not worth it. Same goes for the negative of course. You can't say you'll never do drugs, but still do nothing to keep yourself away from drugs. You can't say I'll never hit someone, because you don't know the limits of your own anger. You can't say I'll never cheat, lie, murder or any of the other the extremes, because you never know what the future may hold or what accidents may happen.
As scary as that sounds.. Reality is harsh.
As you may have noticed, I don't have a lot of patience with anything negative. I hate being negative. I might be negative on my blog sometimes, but this is my space to get it all out. So as not to take it out on the people in my life.. to even show it to the people in my life. I prefer to be the positive one. I make myself positive by making other people feel better and making them more positive. I keep my bad or sad feelings at bay through it all. I like it that way.
*Bright golden star for you for reading this far!*
Apr 21, 2010
Thoughtful Question #5
ThoughtQuestions.com have a few very thoughtful questions... obviously... hence the name. I have taken it upon myself to ponder the questions they put out there. One by one.
If I could change what? My life? Or something specifically? Or a specific day? Or a specific event in my life? Taking all that into consideration, yes, there are probably tons of things I would change about things in my life. Especially things I did and things that happened. There are so many footsteps I would retrace and re-do. Wouldn't you?
But then again... if I change anything... I might not turn out the way I am today. Good or bad thing? I don't know! Heehee! I believe that whatever happens in life and whatever trials you go through in your life are meant to be. All of it, combined, shapes you into the person you are meant to be. Another reason why I say that Bridges are so important. I think that some things are meant to happen. Some things you were meant to do. No matter how horrible or painful, it shapes you.
Would YOU change anything?
If I could change what? My life? Or something specifically? Or a specific day? Or a specific event in my life? Taking all that into consideration, yes, there are probably tons of things I would change about things in my life. Especially things I did and things that happened. There are so many footsteps I would retrace and re-do. Wouldn't you?But then again... if I change anything... I might not turn out the way I am today. Good or bad thing? I don't know! Heehee! I believe that whatever happens in life and whatever trials you go through in your life are meant to be. All of it, combined, shapes you into the person you are meant to be. Another reason why I say that Bridges are so important. I think that some things are meant to happen. Some things you were meant to do. No matter how horrible or painful, it shapes you.
Would YOU change anything?
My 3 Wishes for 21 April 2010
I have random wishes. I have important wishes. I have idolized wishes. I have impossible wishes. I have wishes for the future. I have dreamy wishes. I have ugly wishes. I have awesome wishes. I have wishes for myself. I have wishes for you. I have wishes for the world. I have wishes for the people I love. I have mundane wishes. But all my wishes mean something on a specific day. Let me share today's with you...
- I wish for pancakes and cuddles
- I wish for more time in a day (again)
- I wish that my friend will get through her heartache alright. She is going through way too much (for one person to handle) and is not doing very well. If I could carry her pain for her I would do it in a heartbeat.
Apr 20, 2010
I like a Man...
This really stood out for me today...
Sexie Sadie's Confession #468
I like a man who is creative and who takes risks with that creativity, regardless of the precariousness of the outcome.
Sexie Sadie's Confession #468
I like a man who will tell me I'm beautiful ... as he shoves his **** deep inside of me.
I like a man who will play with a dog, love his Grandma, and hold a child in his lap.
I like a man who lives his life with intent, purpose and freedom.
I like a man who, even when he is going through a hard time, knows that he will be better for it eventually.
I like a man who is creative and who takes risks with that creativity, regardless of the precariousness of the outcome.
I like a man who is tall. Or short. Or in between.
I like a man who is not threatened by a woman's sexuality but might be just intimidated enough that he can't always manage to look at her directly.
I like a man who believes in the power of his **** ... but isn't cocky about that ****.
I like a man who understands that happiness is subject to change, and back again.
I like a man whose vulnerability will peek through at the most unexpected times - on a Sunday morning over breakfast tacos, in a cafe while reminiscing about high school, or in the backyard at dusk while swatting away the mosquitos.
I like a man who will admit when he's wrong ... and forgive me when I am.
I like a man who dresses as if he has somewhere to be, even though, when he reaches his destination, his clothes will inevitably end up in a careless lump in the middle of the floor.
I like a man who says thank you.
I really like a man who says thank you.
Yes, I really, really like a man who says thank you.
Men.
I like 'em.
Yes I do.
Apr 19, 2010
This Changed My Life
Thank you to Kenna Christensen (The Things I Would Never Say) for this life changing piece of literature...
On this day, you read something that moved you
and made you realize there were no more fears to fear, no tears to cry, no head to hang in shame.
That every time you thought you’d offended someone
it was all just in your head and really, they love you with all their heart and nothing will ever change that.
That everyone and everything lives on inside you
and that that doesn’t make any of it any less real.
That soft touches will change you
and stay with you longer than hard ones.
That being alone means you’re free.
That old lovers miss you and new lovers want you
and the one you’re with is the one you’re meant to be with.
That everything you want to happen will happen
if you decide you want it enough.
That every time you think a sad thought
you can think a happy one instead,
and you control that completely.
That the people who make you laugh
are more beautiful than beautiful people.
That the people you hate wish you would stop
and you do too.
That your friends are reflections
of the best parts of you.That you are more than the sum total of the things you know
and how you react to them.
That dancing is sometimes more important
than listening to the music.
That the most embarrassing, awkward moments of your life
are only remembered by you.
That no one judges you when you walk into a room
and all they really want to know, is if you’re judging them.
That what you make and what you do with your time
is more important than you’ll ever fathom.
That the difference between a job and art is passion
and that neither defines who you are.
That talking to strangers
is how you make friends.
That bad days end
but a smile can go around the world.
That life contradicts itself constantly
and that that’s why it’s worth living.
That the difference between pain and love
is time.
That love is only as real
as you want it to be.
That if you feel good, you look good -
but it doesn’t always work the other way around.
That the sun will rise each day
and it’s up to you each day to match it.
That nothing matters up until this point.
That what you decide now -
In this moment -
Will change the future forever.
That rain is beautiful.
And so are you.
-Unknown
That every time you thought you’d offended someone
it was all just in your head and really, they love you with all their heart and nothing will ever change that.
That everyone and everything lives on inside you
and that that doesn’t make any of it any less real.
That soft touches will change you
and stay with you longer than hard ones.
That being alone means you’re free.
That old lovers miss you and new lovers want you
and the one you’re with is the one you’re meant to be with.
That everything you want to happen will happen
if you decide you want it enough.
That every time you think a sad thought
you can think a happy one instead,
and you control that completely.
That the people who make you laugh
are more beautiful than beautiful people.
That the people you hate wish you would stop
and you do too.
That your friends are reflectionsof the best parts of you.That you are more than the sum total of the things you know
and how you react to them.
That dancing is sometimes more important
than listening to the music.
That the most embarrassing, awkward moments of your life
are only remembered by you.
That no one judges you when you walk into a room
and all they really want to know, is if you’re judging them.
That what you make and what you do with your time
is more important than you’ll ever fathom.
That the difference between a job and art is passion
and that neither defines who you are.
That talking to strangers
is how you make friends.
That bad days end
but a smile can go around the world.
That life contradicts itself constantly
and that that’s why it’s worth living.
That the difference between pain and love
is time.
That love is only as real
as you want it to be.
That if you feel good, you look good -
but it doesn’t always work the other way around.
That the sun will rise each day
and it’s up to you each day to match it.
That nothing matters up until this point.
That what you decide now -
In this moment -
Will change the future forever.
That rain is beautiful.
And so are you.
-Unknown
The Sunshine Award
Can you believe it?! Ella Unread (From the Stupidest corner of my Mind) thinks I'm sunshiny and wonderful and positive and all and all... (I feel everything BUT that today but let's not go there, okay?). As awards go, the Sunshine Award has rules and stuff... Let's check it out!
The Sunshine Award: The Sunshine Blog Award is awarded to bloggers whose positivity and creativity inspire others in the blog world. The rules for accepting the award are: 1. Put the logo on your blog or within your post - DONE
2. Pass the award to 5 bloggers
4. Let them know they received this award by commenting on their blog - DONE
5. Share the love and link to the person from whom you received this award - DONE
6. Share 5 things about yourself
TAKE CARE SWEETHEARTS!!
2. Pass the award to 5 bloggers
- Desi van Zyl - Being Desi
- Hillbilly Duhn - Hillbilly Duhn's Times and Tribulations
- Indriyani - My Life etc
- Jordan - Vivre, Rire, Aimer (Grand Essentials)
- Saralouise - One in a Million
4. Let them know they received this award by commenting on their blog - DONE
5. Share the love and link to the person from whom you received this award - DONE
6. Share 5 things about yourself
- I have a pic addiction. (I'm sure you know that).
- I can't seem to get enough sleep. Ever.
- I love sleeping in sweatpants and a tank top.
- I believe I will die young.
- I have a desperate need for a GHD hair straightener and curler.
TAKE CARE SWEETHEARTS!!
My 3 Wishes for 19 April 2010
I have random wishes. I have important wishes. I have idolized wishes. I have impossible wishes. I have wishes for the future. I have dreamy wishes. I have ugly wishes. I have awesome wishes. I have wishes for myself. I have wishes for you. I have wishes for the world. I have wishes for the people I love. I have mundane wishes. But all my wishes mean something on a specific day. Let me share today's with you...
- I wish for truthful answers
- I wish for no more confusion
- I wish for more time spent with my girl friends
Miley Cyrus - 7 Things
Download:
FLVMP43GPI probably shouldn’t say this
But at times I get so scared
When I think about the previous
Relationship we shared
It was awesome but we lost it
It’s not possible for me, not to care
And now we’re standing in the rain
But nothing’s ever gonna change until you hear,
My dear
The 7 things I hate about you
The 7 things I hate about you, oh you
You’re vain, your games, you’re insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh, you make me cry
I don’t know which side to buy
Your friends, they’re jerks
When you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you
It’s awkward and it’s silent
As I wait for you to say
What I need to hear now
Your sincere apology
When you mean it, I’ll believe it
If you text it, I’ll delete it
Let’s be clear
Oh, I’m not coming back
You’re taking 7 steps here
The 7 things I hate about you
You’re vain, your games, you’re insecure
You love me, you like her
You make me laugh, you make me cry
I don’t know which side to buy
Your friends, they’re jerks
When you act like them, just know it hurts
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I hate the most that you do
You make me love you
And compared to all the great things
That would take too long to write
I probably should mention
The 7 that I like
The 7 things I like about you
Your hair, your eyes, your old Levi’s
When we kiss I’m hypnotized
You make me laugh, you make me cry
But I guess that’s both I’ll have to buy
Your hands in mine
When we’re intertwined, everything’s alright
I wanna be with the one I know
And the 7th thing I like the most that you do
You make me love you
You do, Uhuhhh, uhmmm
Uhuhuhmmm, Uhuhuhmmm
Thoughtful Question #4
ThoughtQuestions.com have a few very thoughtful questions... obviously... hence the name. I have taken it upon myself to ponder the questions they put out there. One by one.
Not too long ago, actually. I won't go into detail but it's regarding some private bedroom matters with a certain someone. Heehee! *Blushing* The other new thing was seafood... I hate seafood alright? I still do. But I tried it. Some of it wasn't that bad, but I'm still no fan of it.
I think it's very important to try new things as much as you possibly can. Even if it involves exploring yourself more and more or exploring a new hobby for yourself. Challenging yourself. I have SO MUCH that I still want to do. SO MUCH that I still want to see and experience and create. I love creating things. By myself. It gives me such a sense of accomplishment. Like each and every one of my blog posts also do... I finished something. I put something out there. That little piece of me.
When was the last time YOU tried something new??
Not too long ago, actually. I won't go into detail but it's regarding some private bedroom matters with a certain someone. Heehee! *Blushing* The other new thing was seafood... I hate seafood alright? I still do. But I tried it. Some of it wasn't that bad, but I'm still no fan of it.I think it's very important to try new things as much as you possibly can. Even if it involves exploring yourself more and more or exploring a new hobby for yourself. Challenging yourself. I have SO MUCH that I still want to do. SO MUCH that I still want to see and experience and create. I love creating things. By myself. It gives me such a sense of accomplishment. Like each and every one of my blog posts also do... I finished something. I put something out there. That little piece of me.
When was the last time YOU tried something new??
Apr 16, 2010
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