I'm Becoming 'Her'

I'm becoming the girl who makes excuses for the guy.
I'm becoming the girl who is satisfied with too little.
I'm becoming the girl with no confidence.
I'm becoming the girl who believes she is just not enough.

I used to be the girl who uplifts 'Her'.
I used to be the girl who explains to 'Her' that there are no excuses.
I used to be the girl who is always satisfied. By different things.
I used to be the girl who tells 'Her' how wonderful she is, how she is ALL THAT, how stupid he is and how she has nothing to worry about.
I used to be the girl who had everything going for her. Well, mostly.
I used to be the girl who could take on the world with a brave face.
I used to be the girl who just didn't give a shit.

I don't know if I can be that girl anymore.
I don't know if she's still there.
I don't know how much longer my mask will last.

I'm scared of so many things now. Is that what 'Becoming a Woman' feels like?
Then I wanna stay a kid. I wanna stay blissfully ignorant. It's always worked for me.

I don't want to become 'Her'.
I don't want to give in.

I'm strong enough. I'll get through it like I always do


~What doesn't kill you, Makes you stronger~