I Melt...

I really do... so what's the problem? Clearly he doesn't melt in mine. Why do woman over-analyze shit that happen to them? I'd love to have that answer because I probably do the same thing. But is it over analyzing or contemplating reality? OMG I'm so confused I wanna run and hide. At least I have a place to run and hide to... just can't get there as often as I'd like... The farm. Mmmmmmm....

Anyhow, as you can see I'm so confused I can't even put into words what's happening in my life. To put it out there - the bf and I are possible on the breaking point of our relationship. We're both just too scared to admit it and end it. Point is, we love each other. We both know that. But there's just some HUGE ASS GAP between us... more like a we're both standing on opposite cliffs and don't know how to bridge the gap. I feel so drained and depressed lately.

I'm sure it won't last long Dear Blog (as there are no readers to 'talk' to it's up to you Dear Blog). I'll get over it like I always do. I'll cry. I'll eat. I shut up. Then I'll pick myself up and carry on. 'Cause there's a lot of different fish in the sea (although I only want one right now, it could change I guess)... and I'll find the right one for me... I'm only almost 21 FFS!!! I've got a lot to do and a lot to learn, and frankly - it's his loss if he doesn't want to run this rat race with me.

(Look at me trying to be all positive and motivating myself...)